So, this dress. I went out shopping last week for a new pair of jeans, and this is what I come home with. Of course, I didn’t need it…but you know what my first thought was when I saw it? How stinking cute it would look with a baby bump! Ha…it’s the truth….I had to try it on. The dressing room further convinced me that I needed it. I don’t know what is happening to me, but all I can think about lately is having another baby. When I shop, I re-consider purchases that wouldn’t fit an expanding stomach. I haven’t gotten serious about working out because what’s the point of getting abs if I’m just going to get pregnant again (what a terrible justification) But it’s true. These are my thoughts. And we are not even “trying” yet. Sam and I have obviously talked about it….but one of us is still hesitant (clearly, not I). And the more we talk…. the more I want it.
I think a lot of it has to do with Rylee growing up so fast. I’ve always imagined my kids being close enough in age that they would grow up being friends. I think because it’s what I had, I want the same experience for them. Rylee isn’t my tiny little baby anymore. All of a sudden she’s turned into this walking, talking, independent, opinionated little person. Honestly, how did this happen so quickly!? Where did my baby go? As much as I love to see her grow and learn, there are times when I really miss the “newness”. It’s funny how all the hard parts of having newborn get cloudy the older they get. Maybe that’s when you know you’re ready for another. Or so I keep telling myself.
Anyway…all this to say. I’m getting the itch.
Photos by Stone Crandall